Life

Have you ever wondered how things in your life can change so quickly? How things you thought were going to happen- don't, and how confusing it can all be, no matter how bad someone tries to explain it to you. I don't know even know if any of that made sense, but to me it did. You learn that people who you thought would always be there-won't and people who you thought you could trust-you can't. It's hard to trust again, but there are friends, family, and God who DO love you more than anything. Don't give up on ALL just because a FEW have let you down. We have to plunge into the unknown with some measure of faith. We put our faith to the test, trusting that God will bring about the best for our lives. This means, we can't give up when times are hard. It's never going to be easy....I always heard that nothing good comes easy. Nonbelievers are hesitant to trust Jesus because they do not know him. He is the ultimate provider! Really sit and think about it....we think we are so lonely or that nobody understands us, but that is when we need to pull close to him. He WILL fulfill those missing pieces in your life. I heard from a really good friend, that those are the times that we need to spend more time with Him. Pull closer and really get connected with Him. I have felt God more than ever in the last month, but I also know that I've spent more time with Him and being understanding of what's going on in my life instead of giving up or not trying to understand. Forgiveness, faith, and love are some of the things I have been struggling with lately. I'm trying so hard to understand why people have done what they have, and trying to still have faith in things that are easy to give up on. Sometimes deep roots of hurt prevail and bitterness tightens its grip on your spirit and makes reconciliation very difficult. God tells us to forgive as he has forgiven us. I've definately seen that God has done some amazing things in me, because He's helped me handle certain situations in ways that I probably never would have before. God's got a reason for doing everything, we may not know the reason, but there is. I know this is stuff that we have all heard before, but I know that I never really sat and thought about it until certain things went on in my life and I realized how strong I was. There is still so much more I want to talk about, but I know this is getting long and I've got some stuff I have to do before bed! I hope I didn't confuse you too much, but I'll finish later! Night!

Ms. Leasing Agent

Yes, that would be me! Ms. Leasing Agent. For those of you who don't know, I got a job in my apartment complex, Sunset Apartments as a leasing agent. Today was only my 4th day at my new job and I leased my very first apartment to some guy!!! I sat him down and gave him information on the apartment and then took him on a tour of our apartment we had to show and then went back to the office and he filled out all the paper work!!! Man, I'm good!!! hahaha! Ok...maybe it's not as exciting to you guys, but this is my first professional type job and its in sales, which if I want to go into Pharmaceutical Sales, then this is good experience for me! I'm def. beginning to come out of my shell and being a really social person...lol! I know some of you are think...come out of her shell? Shoot, we can't ever get her to shut up! :) You know you love me! Ok...well that's it for now. I have to run to wal-mart and clean up a little because Shelia is going to be staying with me for a couple of days!!!! YAY! I won't be lonely!! I still have that good blog I'm waiting to write! It's just not here yet, because I have to take my time on it and I haven't had that time lately....be back later!

wanting to blog

I'm really wanting to write a good blog right now, but I have some spanish homework to do and I have to read my devotional before bed. I have some really good stuff to talk about though, so if it's not too late, then I will write something. If not then I will get on tomorrow and write!

P.S.---You know what a really good song is?? In This Moment - by Big and Rich. I was just listening to that right now as I'm writing and thought I would share :)

I love shopping...

I got back into Angelo today after a weekend at home in Rotan, and just felt like I needed to do some shopping! So, I unpacked and about 10 minutes later, I headed back out the door to get some stuff for my apartment. Ok, well I ended up not getting stuff for my apartment, I got some new clothes (go figure right?) BUT, I bought everything on sale!!! AND it can all be worn at my new job! I needed business attire and it all looks good! I'm a leasing agent, so I've got to look like one! haha! Victoria Secret was even having a great sale! ......hey, women gotta have that stuff to wear to work too, can't go without it! lol!!! So, tomorrow is my first day of work and I'm really nervous, but I think I'm going to like it! I'm sure you will hear all about it tomorrow night...I better get to bed so I can get up an iron clothes and do all that good stuff! Wish me luck!

At Home

Alright, well as you know, I came home for the weekend to my parents house in Rotan and it just so happened to be Rotan's Centennial. I really didn't even care to go to it or do much of anything this weekend other than hang out with my parents, but my old boss (Amy) talked me into waitressing, because she said I would make really good tips with this event going on downtown. So I did it and yes, I did make good tips, but I did realize how glad I was to not live here anymore. I might sound like I'm just griping, but I really realized how a lot of people in this small town don't have a life outside of it. Most of them have never been anywhere else and they are so caught up on everyone else's business that it's sad. I'm so lucky to have been blessed with the parents I have been and I totally respect them and how they have raised us. I just see how immature some people are and I really feel sorry for them....it's going to be them hurting later in life, not me. Anyways, other than all the small town drama, I really enjoy getting to spend time with my parents. The last 2 nights, we have sat out on our back porch and just talked. I'm really lucky to have parents who care so much about my future and who thought about that before I was even born. I've always been really close to both of my parents, but I've also always been a daddy's girl and my dad and I share some good memories and and great conversations. We talk about pretty much anything. We talked about school, graduating, my future job, boys and marriage, and JESUS! Yes, we had a long conversation the last 2 nights, but I really look up to and admire my dad for what he's done for us. He choose keep succeeding in life to provide for us. And my mom.....she's the world's greatest! I honestly don't know how she keeps track of everything she does, but she's amazing! She's always been there to make decisions WITH my dad and I hope to be half the wife and mother that she is one day! (she did like 5 loads of my laundry for me this weekend too!) :) You really don't see how lucky you are until you get older and I know there is going to be more and more that I appreciate as I get older, but I just admire my parents so much for taking a Christian stand point on every situation! I could go on and on, but I know this is getting a little long and trust me...I will have more to say in plenty of other blog postings! But I just wanted you to know that even though I strongly dislike this little town my parents live in for now, I love being at home with them and spending quality time with them! I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD! Here's a picture of me and my family in Cancun this summer!!!

Hick town

You know you are driving into a hick town whenever you come upon a tractor driving down the road.....I was driving to my parents house in Rotan today and I just can't really see how I ever lived around here. I passed 2 tractors driving down the road just from Roby to Rotan, which is only 10 miles. There is absolutely nothing to do around here and....well, nevermind I won't go there. It does feel good to be in my house though with my mom and dad! Nothing else can compare to "your house".....I'll finish posting in a little while, I gotta run to the store with my mom! (can you believe this place even has a grocery store?)

The Notebook

So, I've been wanting to watch The Notebook really bad lately.(which would only make it the 100th time I've watched it) I tried to get everyone to watch it this past weekend while we were camping, but the guys just kept giving me a hard time and said that they will only watch it when they ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO to keep their girlfriends happy....and something about deposits...I don't know. They are so full of it! But, oh my gosh! Beth and I are sitting down watching it right now and it is just so incredibly romantic! Instead of watching it with our boyfriends, (who seem to be hiding right now) we are watching it together and feeling sorry for one another. WOW! One day Beth, like I said in my last post, we are going to have that man who dances in the street with us and looks at us like we are the greatest thing in the world! He's going to be HOTT just like Ryan Gossling...but even better!
I can't even think right now, because I'm in such amazingment by this movie and knowing that one day, it's actually going to happen to me! God does have that one person to fit your life and being in love has got to be one of the greatest things in your life. We just have to be patient and not push anything. Ok...i'll just have to finish this blog in a little bit when the movie is over because I can't even concentrate right now!

My apartment is starting to come together! Slowly, but surely! I was really bored this afternoon so I went shopping (bet you had no idea I was going to say that) for some stuff for my apartment. I got accent pillows for my couch (finally) and a cute picture to hang on the wall that matches the pillows I got. Now, if I could only get one of those boys over here to hang up my big pictures, then it would look really good! I also got a new devotional that I'm super excited about starting! I found some pretty good deals today! Beth came over to visit for a while and we ended up going to see Kylah...I haven't seen her in forever, but she seems so happy! I mean, Bethany and I just can't figure out why she would be so happy, I mean she's a newlywed and well, who does that? haha! OK...can you tell Bethany and I are just a little jealous??? It's ok Beth, our time is coming and he is going to be STINKIN' AWESOME!!! We'll get all that romantic stuff one of these days! :) Anyways, Kylah is moving and that makes me really sad....even though I don't get to see her much anymore, she's been a really good friend and we went through some stuff together at one point and I'm just lucky to know her! I will definitely miss you girl, but I'm so happy for you! ~Good luck and God Bless~

Well, I'm sitting in class right now and I probably shouldn't be typing this right now, but oh well. We aren't really doing anything. The last couple of days have been pretty good! I know I said before I want a dog, but now I think I really need one to keep me company! I'm still adjusting to life back here in Angelo and it's the summer and a lot of my friends are busy working or going away, but once school starts back up, I know it will get better!
I'm extremely tired today! Only getting 4 hours of sleep will do that to you! If SOMEBODY wouldn't keep me up on the phone all night...then I wouldn't have this problem! Just kidding! The last couple of nights, I've really seen how God works! In fact, we had a good conversation about Christianity last night!
Anyways, I know this doesn't say much, but I'll write again later because we are having GIRLS NIGHT TONIGHT!!!! Well, me and one other friend. lol!

An awesome weekend!

I'm back! I haven't been writing for a while because my parents came into town last Wednesday and stayed until Friday and then I went camping over the weekend! It was a blast! There wasn't too many of us who went, but we sure did have a wonderful time! It was my friends, Brandon, Hailey, Casey, Heath, Heath's parents and his little cousin! We drove down to the Frio River Friday afternoon and got setup at our campsite and then pretty much just sat outside talking. Thank goodness we had an RV because it poured down rain Friday night (ALL NIGHT LONG) and continued until around 1 on Saturday. So we hung out and watched a movie in the RV Saturday morning and then at that afternoon we floated the river! This was my very first time to ever float the river so I was super excited! It was pretty darn cold, but after about 10 minutes you kind of get used to it. Saturday night we went to the dance and had so much fun!!! Heath and I danced our butts off and even learned a few new moves. Thanks to Brandon and Hailey, Heath and I learned how to do some kind of spin and dip! lol! As you can see in the picture, we were cracking up trying to learn that thing! Then Sunday, we went to a different part of the river and floated it.....let me tell you, that was an experience for me! Yes, I was the first one to flip over in my tube, but I recovered like a champ! I sure did scrape my booty on some of those rocks too! Even though Heath says I can't consider this a camping trip because we stayed in an RV, I still consider it a camping trip! We cooked out, showered only once, floated the river, and I would have set up the tent...if we wouldn't have gotten all that rain! It was a good way to start off my camping experience. We all got to know each other a little more, even though we are pretty close already. This was one of the best trips I've been on! I can't wait to go again and next time I'm gonna show those guys that I can put up a tent and stay in it for that matter! :)

I got a job!!!

I GOT THE JOB!!! I went for my interview at my apartment complex office today and came out with good results! I'm so excited! I think it will be a pretty cool job. I'll get to do all kinds of stuff. Answer phones, filing, give apartment information, give people tours of the apartments...all sorts of things! Plus, I get 20% off of rent every month! How awesome is that?!
I can't believe I missed my show tonight! We took my mom out to eat at the Olive Garden for her birthday, so that's a good excuse...but dang it was the LAST ONE! I'll have to watch it on the computer as soon as it gets posted up! So if any of you know what happened you better not tell me! Alright, well I'm pretty tired so....more tomorrow!

nothing too exciting

My interview got rescheduled for tomorrow, so I still don't know about a job yet...pray that I get it! Other than that, I'm fired up because I made an 88 on my spanish test today!!! I def. wasn't expecting that one!
I'm so blessed to have Shelia in my life! For those of you who don't know, she has been my best friend since my freshman year of high school. We talk ALL the time, whether it is over the phone or in person. We know everything about one another and somehow we can still sit and talk for hours. She stayed over the other night and we didn't go to bed until 3 AM because we were just talking about life. It's so crazy how in less than 2 years our lives are going to be completely different. I hate not knowing what the future holds, but I guess that is the excitement in it! I just get it from my dad, because he has NO patience what-so-ever and I think I'm following in his footsteps...
Anyways, tomorrow is my mom's birthday and I have no idea what to do for her...they are coming to visit tomorrow for a couple of days, so hopefully I can take her out or something. Aunt Ann-you better not forget to call mom! haha! Well, nothing else too exciting happened today, so I guess you'll hear from me again tomorrow! NIGHT!

YAY!!

YAY!!!!!! I think I might have a job!!! (finally) I've been looking for one since I moved back to San Angelo, which was only like 2 weeks ago, but couldn't find one. I applied at about 3 or 4 different places last week, but didn't hear anything from any of them. BUT today I got a call from the office at my apartment complex and I have an interview tomorrow!!! So, pray that I get the job, because I need one....-running low on cash. Other than that its been a pretty good day because I didn't have any class this morning. My spanish class got canceled, so I pretty much just hung out this afternoon. Went and laid out by the pool for a while and am now getting ready to go to Chapter One! So now, that I might have a job maybe I can get a dog after a while. haha! I don't think my dad will go for that, but I've been wanting one so bad!!! hm...english bulldog or golden retriever? love em' both! alright, well there's not too much else to say right now........

My sister

Ok....so my sister is crazy! I know in my last post I couldn't say what she was doing, but apparently she told my mom she was coming so anyways, we had a blast for like 3 hours. She drove in from Austin today, got here at about 6:15 and just left my apartment about 2 mintues ago to go see some friends for a little bit and then head back to Austin. Talk about a spur of the moment and quick trip!! We had fun though. We showed her friend Kevin around San Angelo, because he's never been out to west Texas (he's from Houston) enough said....and then we went and ate at Cheddar's and drove out past the lake and that's about it! She got to see my apartment though and loved it! It was a nice surprise! A good way to end the night!

Beautiful Sunday

Today has been a good day so far. I went to church this morning and then went out to eat with two of my closest friends. I heard a good message in church, something that everyone can learn something from. God is always going to there for us, we need to seek him with the right heart and he's there. Two things that our Pastor Henry went over today was why we don't ask God: Fear of judgement and Feeling of inferiority. I sat and thought about that for a moment and realized how true that is. We might be ashamed of certain actions we've taken and are afraid of what others think and what God may think, but in the long run....the only person who matters is God. He's the one who will pass judgement. He gives liberally and has compassion over those who seek him in everything they do! Just a little thought......anyways, after church I went out to eat with Brandon and Hailey. They are 2 amazing people! Brandon is pretty much the big brother I never had! He's been there for me through everything and I got the pleasure of meeting his girlfriend Hailey not too long ago, who is the sweetest person you'll ever know! I look forward to getting to know her more and more!

My sister just called and is pretty crazy....I can't say what she's doing because my mom and dad will probably read this, but don't worry it's nothing bad at all! Just something that has to be kept between sisters! :) But I actually can't wait to see her! lol! Oh yea! I was making out my school schedule a while ago, and if I did the math correctly then I should be graduating in December or 2008!!!!!! My dad will be so happy to hear that news!!!!! So proud too!!! Well, I better go for now, I've got to clean up my apartment before I have company! Check in later....

San Angelo

Ok...well first of all, I wasn't going to get this thing, but as Bethany was putting hers together last night, I thought it would be a good way for my family that I don't ever get to see to be updated on my life. Plus, I've been pretty lonely lately and bored so I thought why not? I just moved back to San Angelo from Austin and I'm extremely excited! I've got my first very own apartment (that's why I'm lonely) and I'm taking summer classes. (who does that?) I'm starting a whole new path in my life. Living by myself is taking some getting used to because even if my sister and I didn't hang out all that much in Austin, I still at least had her there to fight with and I knew she was there just in case anything happened. Now I get to decorate the way I want to and if I don't feel like putting my stuff up at the moment, then I don't have to. :) Anyways, as far as life here in San Angelo, I really haven't gotten to see too many of my friends since I've been back. They are all pretty busy working so it's understandable. However, I did come back to some stuff that hurt me pretty bad, but God is helping me through it each and every day. You never really know how strong you are until you go through these hardships. That's the next big thing in my life. GOD! I find an interest in learning more about him every day! My friends and I are involved in a Christian fellowship called Chi Alpha and I have got to say, I'm so blessed to have them in my life! Being back in San Angelo gives me the perfect opportunity to get involved more and is just way better for my life than where I was. I'm becoming stronger and more independent! Right dad? Well, I better go for now....I've got to go spend money on some things for my apartment.....money I don't have. Keep checking in because I'll be updating pretty regularly! Let me know what you think!