Life

Have you ever wondered how things in your life can change so quickly? How things you thought were going to happen- don't, and how confusing it can all be, no matter how bad someone tries to explain it to you. I don't know even know if any of that made sense, but to me it did. You learn that people who you thought would always be there-won't and people who you thought you could trust-you can't. It's hard to trust again, but there are friends, family, and God who DO love you more than anything. Don't give up on ALL just because a FEW have let you down. We have to plunge into the unknown with some measure of faith. We put our faith to the test, trusting that God will bring about the best for our lives. This means, we can't give up when times are hard. It's never going to be easy....I always heard that nothing good comes easy. Nonbelievers are hesitant to trust Jesus because they do not know him. He is the ultimate provider! Really sit and think about it....we think we are so lonely or that nobody understands us, but that is when we need to pull close to him. He WILL fulfill those missing pieces in your life. I heard from a really good friend, that those are the times that we need to spend more time with Him. Pull closer and really get connected with Him. I have felt God more than ever in the last month, but I also know that I've spent more time with Him and being understanding of what's going on in my life instead of giving up or not trying to understand. Forgiveness, faith, and love are some of the things I have been struggling with lately. I'm trying so hard to understand why people have done what they have, and trying to still have faith in things that are easy to give up on. Sometimes deep roots of hurt prevail and bitterness tightens its grip on your spirit and makes reconciliation very difficult. God tells us to forgive as he has forgiven us. I've definately seen that God has done some amazing things in me, because He's helped me handle certain situations in ways that I probably never would have before. God's got a reason for doing everything, we may not know the reason, but there is. I know this is stuff that we have all heard before, but I know that I never really sat and thought about it until certain things went on in my life and I realized how strong I was. There is still so much more I want to talk about, but I know this is getting long and I've got some stuff I have to do before bed! I hope I didn't confuse you too much, but I'll finish later! Night!

Ms. Leasing Agent

Yes, that would be me! Ms. Leasing Agent. For those of you who don't know, I got a job in my apartment complex, Sunset Apartments as a leasing agent. Today was only my 4th day at my new job and I leased my very first apartment to some guy!!! I sat him down and gave him information on the apartment and then took him on a tour of our apartment we had to show and then went back to the office and he filled out all the paper work!!! Man, I'm good!!! hahaha! Ok...maybe it's not as exciting to you guys, but this is my first professional type job and its in sales, which if I want to go into Pharmaceutical Sales, then this is good experience for me! I'm def. beginning to come out of my shell and being a really social person...lol! I know some of you are think...come out of her shell? Shoot, we can't ever get her to shut up! :) You know you love me! Ok...well that's it for now. I have to run to wal-mart and clean up a little because Shelia is going to be staying with me for a couple of days!!!! YAY! I won't be lonely!! I still have that good blog I'm waiting to write! It's just not here yet, because I have to take my time on it and I haven't had that time lately....be back later!

wanting to blog

I'm really wanting to write a good blog right now, but I have some spanish homework to do and I have to read my devotional before bed. I have some really good stuff to talk about though, so if it's not too late, then I will write something. If not then I will get on tomorrow and write!

P.S.---You know what a really good song is?? In This Moment - by Big and Rich. I was just listening to that right now as I'm writing and thought I would share :)

I love shopping...

I got back into Angelo today after a weekend at home in Rotan, and just felt like I needed to do some shopping! So, I unpacked and about 10 minutes later, I headed back out the door to get some stuff for my apartment. Ok, well I ended up not getting stuff for my apartment, I got some new clothes (go figure right?) BUT, I bought everything on sale!!! AND it can all be worn at my new job! I needed business attire and it all looks good! I'm a leasing agent, so I've got to look like one! haha! Victoria Secret was even having a great sale! ......hey, women gotta have that stuff to wear to work too, can't go without it! lol!!! So, tomorrow is my first day of work and I'm really nervous, but I think I'm going to like it! I'm sure you will hear all about it tomorrow night...I better get to bed so I can get up an iron clothes and do all that good stuff! Wish me luck!

At Home

Alright, well as you know, I came home for the weekend to my parents house in Rotan and it just so happened to be Rotan's Centennial. I really didn't even care to go to it or do much of anything this weekend other than hang out with my parents, but my old boss (Amy) talked me into waitressing, because she said I would make really good tips with this event going on downtown. So I did it and yes, I did make good tips, but I did realize how glad I was to not live here anymore. I might sound like I'm just griping, but I really realized how a lot of people in this small town don't have a life outside of it. Most of them have never been anywhere else and they are so caught up on everyone else's business that it's sad. I'm so lucky to have been blessed with the parents I have been and I totally respect them and how they have raised us. I just see how immature some people are and I really feel sorry for them....it's going to be them hurting later in life, not me. Anyways, other than all the small town drama, I really enjoy getting to spend time with my parents. The last 2 nights, we have sat out on our back porch and just talked. I'm really lucky to have parents who care so much about my future and who thought about that before I was even born. I've always been really close to both of my parents, but I've also always been a daddy's girl and my dad and I share some good memories and and great conversations. We talk about pretty much anything. We talked about school, graduating, my future job, boys and marriage, and JESUS! Yes, we had a long conversation the last 2 nights, but I really look up to and admire my dad for what he's done for us. He choose keep succeeding in life to provide for us. And my mom.....she's the world's greatest! I honestly don't know how she keeps track of everything she does, but she's amazing! She's always been there to make decisions WITH my dad and I hope to be half the wife and mother that she is one day! (she did like 5 loads of my laundry for me this weekend too!) :) You really don't see how lucky you are until you get older and I know there is going to be more and more that I appreciate as I get older, but I just admire my parents so much for taking a Christian stand point on every situation! I could go on and on, but I know this is getting a little long and trust me...I will have more to say in plenty of other blog postings! But I just wanted you to know that even though I strongly dislike this little town my parents live in for now, I love being at home with them and spending quality time with them! I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD! Here's a picture of me and my family in Cancun this summer!!!

Hick town

You know you are driving into a hick town whenever you come upon a tractor driving down the road.....I was driving to my parents house in Rotan today and I just can't really see how I ever lived around here. I passed 2 tractors driving down the road just from Roby to Rotan, which is only 10 miles. There is absolutely nothing to do around here and....well, nevermind I won't go there. It does feel good to be in my house though with my mom and dad! Nothing else can compare to "your house".....I'll finish posting in a little while, I gotta run to the store with my mom! (can you believe this place even has a grocery store?)

The Notebook

So, I've been wanting to watch The Notebook really bad lately.(which would only make it the 100th time I've watched it) I tried to get everyone to watch it this past weekend while we were camping, but the guys just kept giving me a hard time and said that they will only watch it when they ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO to keep their girlfriends happy....and something about deposits...I don't know. They are so full of it! But, oh my gosh! Beth and I are sitting down watching it right now and it is just so incredibly romantic! Instead of watching it with our boyfriends, (who seem to be hiding right now) we are watching it together and feeling sorry for one another. WOW! One day Beth, like I said in my last post, we are going to have that man who dances in the street with us and looks at us like we are the greatest thing in the world! He's going to be HOTT just like Ryan Gossling...but even better!
I can't even think right now, because I'm in such amazingment by this movie and knowing that one day, it's actually going to happen to me! God does have that one person to fit your life and being in love has got to be one of the greatest things in your life. We just have to be patient and not push anything. Ok...i'll just have to finish this blog in a little bit when the movie is over because I can't even concentrate right now!